Actually frankly speaking i don't really know how to create a blog because previously i have one blog which is me and my dear together .. but since dec 2006 we have not update anything there but there is a lot of my sweet moments about my dear and me .. although last time my dear want to teach me how to create blog and write something there in our blog but this time i know it a bit late to do anything because my dear is so stress about our relationship as what she told me about her mummy disapprove us but from my view as long as both love each other and have feeling towards each other so should have not giving up so easily.. i promise my dear a lot of thing including of taking courses to upgrade my qualification & have a secure income so that in future we can zhu fu by her mummy and i know maybe it a bit late to regret .. but i really hope my dear can give me a chance and herself a chance for our future once and again.. i still remember during feb 2006 my dear and me create a personal blog just for ourself and she always wrote what she want to say there and she have ask me to write but i replied her i don't know how to use it and only i do is to keep update to the blog about what she wrote there.. i will never forget the day when we first started together.. i always make her so sad and hurt so i told myself i am a man .. i want to give her security, love, concern but i still remember the day i hurt her when she come to my house void deck and she ask me come down find her and i keep finding excuses not to meet her but not don't know is it my retribution already because now i cant meet her already.. and i know she like me to paid attention when we are on the phone or during our conversation but seem how i keep hurt her again by not paying attention to her.. actually i ask myself why i keep on prevent her from meeting her own friend or colleague .. in fact not i don't trust her for what she doing is just that i love her too much and of course i will a bit sensitive rite i still remember everything she love, likes and dislikes.. in my lifetime .. it already 5 day i never meet my dear and when on the phone i can sense she is not really happy i guess maybe i stress her a lot by keep sms her, call her, actually every moments i keep thinking of her and thinking what she doing now.. i wanna tell her I LOVE U no matter what happen.. i will update again when i think of more to say from my heart..